真的很想死啦!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
><

你不会原谅我...
我也不会原谅我自己....
这是我自己的约定...
与你无关...
我..
也开始...
对自己...
失望了...
好想好想死...
我这次...
真的心好痛...
我终于明白....
我真的让你心痛和失望...
对不起...
我也对不起我自己的心...
我发现...
我还爱你的...
对不起...
我再也欺骗不辽自己..
我是傻海!!!!!!!!!!!

since when i start liking to pretend my self??
since when i start tat??
izit bcoz..
wanna let u knw...
i'm fine....
everything are fine??
or...
i don wanna u knw..
i'm sad??
i'm angry...
i'm missing u...
T^T
no one knw wat i feel n think..
did u knw??
haha...
yeaaa...
description for my self are...
stupid,dam dam,idiot,fucker,bitch...
i think not enough la...
haha

眼泪...
渐渐在我的生活里...
变成了我的好朋友...
现在的我...
又回到以前的我...
变回那个胆小又怕事的人了...
呵呵...
是不是很可笑...
连我自己也笑自己了....
哈哈....
其实..
我真的不懂为什么...
我会将...
哈哈...
small little thing happen..
den feel like crying jor...
haha...
suck like shit la me..

你应该不懂我的感觉吧....
如果我告诉你...
真正告诉我的人不是我的outside friends...
你会怎样???
haha...
我不敢去想...
因为"他"告诉我...
说你会讨厌我...
而我是害怕你真的会讨厌我...
同时我也害怕会失去你...
所以...
我决定逃避你...
当你跟我讲话时...
我的心真的很痛....
对不起...
every thing..
bcoz of me...
it changed to unhappy ending...
sorry andy yang qi feng...
i seriously cant tell u de true..
i'm sorry...
at the same time..
i remove u from my fb n msn...
so i re-add u at fb 1st...
if u accept means u still treat me as ur friend...
after tat i will re-add u in my msn...
if u dont re-accept it...
okay...
i understand...
coz is my fault...
coz i stupid go believe tat boy...
believe everything he say..
tat y everything bcum like tis...
once again..
andy yang qi feng...
i'm sorry...
我真的是真心的说....
对不起....

[ time ]...

everyday passing...

so i don really know how to appreciate u.....

i seriously donno how to.....

coz.....

ltr i take it to serious...

i will get hurt from u....

haiz...

wat to do...

haiz haiz...

i think is time to gv u some prove...

that hw much i love u...

erm.....

ADYQF...

i seriously like u...

ya i know i am stupid...

for liking u...

coz we both have no chance...

1st...

u like leng lui...

n i'm not ur cup of tea...

so...

1 fail....

2nd...

i'm bigger den u...

so 2 fail...

n i still dont really know u well...

bt u r kind, nice, quite cute n handsome...

haha....

maybe tats y i like u...

haha

><










end...

i know u dont believe me like u...

till i seriously brave enough!!

haha

u will famous in my blog...

u know wat..

i will write ur name out...

n say how much i <3 u...

hehe...

love u...

so so so so so so so much....

><










end...

i dont know wat wrong today....

after school i suppose to be happy de...

bt i sudden emo..

den i think myself think to much jor..

haiz..

till cry at the bus....

i feel like he started think me are annoy....

><

i'm sorry...

a*** y*** ** ****

i'm vry sorry to u!!!

haiz...

n...

maybe bcoz u call me everyday...

i alrdy take it as a habit jor...

if u din call me for 1 day...

i will like not uncomfortable....

haiz...

sorry ya..

**** ****

i will try to not take it as a habit de...

><

因为迟早....

我们都不会是朋友的......

我们迟早都会吵架的.....

just like me n GJW.....

除非...

你不像他....










end.....

my heart is crying now..

dont u know!!!!!

haiz...

b4 PMR..

we all say sienzzz a, boring a...

all those..

now...

i can 4 sure...

after PMR is...

1000000000's boring n sienzzzz....

haiz.....

n...

school holiday is closer n closer....

haha...

can't tahan la....

sienzz dao...

bt nvm...

he got sms v me...

n my friend is always beside me...

^^

hahah.....











end...

to u...

u get in to my heart jor leh..

how u did it...

haha...

><

u had kicked ~youyou~ n jw out my heart...

thx....

haha..

me no suffer jor...

thx....

love u...

still cant tell out ur name 1st...

is not time yet..

^^

love u....










end...

is time to let u go...

get out from my heart..

n let ~youyou~ cum in..

^^

haha..

n get out from my memories...

leave some space for ~youyou~...

actually...

~youyou~ had gave me some very happy de memories...

i can 4got it...

coz..

it so unforgettable...

haha...









end..

我喜欢你们两个...

所以..

我做了一个选着...

那就是...

~youyou~

我选他了...

我不要再让JW hurt 我了...

so...

我选着了这个决定.....









end....

when every time i saw u..

i feel like hiding my self..

coz..

it hurt when i see u..

it let me recall every thing tat u gave me last time..

GJW..

u all will ask..

y i so brave to write him name...

k...

let me tell ya..

he let me suffer when i know him till now...

n now me n him not close to each other jot..

so don care jor..

2nd reason is..

i scare his friend..

bt now..

haha..

every one knoe jor....

so don care also..

haha...

GJW...

u know wat??

u win again..

u know y....

i'm till like u..

so wat....

haha..

when u making me jealous...

i tell u..

ya..

i am so so so so jealous..

k u had success jor....

every thing u do..

it nvr fail...

i'm de 1 hu keep on lose...

so...

i 拜你为师....

so plzzz...

stop making me like u backkkk!!!

coz..

我很难才可以放弃你的....

hope u care bout me a bit la..

end....

i cannot lie to myself anymore...

both of u...

i also like...

seriously...

now..

i'm so freaking suffering for this...

haiz...

bt never mind...

next year the black one will not at this school anymore..

so...

is free oneself from this mistake...

haha...

bt...

another thing i am suffering is...

the white one maybe also will change school...

haiz...

donno wat to do jor...

end,love u...

without u...

my life is so dam boring...

i miss the time tat we had together...

i miss the time tat we pass through it together.....

miss it so much...











end,love you

haiz...

tml is pmr !!!

SO Good Luck to every form3 people!

~YouYou~

i hope u will wish me...

haiz...

bt u donno anything...

cant blame u..











end...i love u...

你令到我很讨厌我自己了.....

因为你....

你让我的心又开始乱了....

my heart is suffering for u....

i don knw y...

i really hope my self can die....

so no need suffer so much....

bcoz of u...

i start tat since we nvr talk...

i start tat bac...

bcoz...

i ask u wonder u still hate me???

haiz...

i really very de regret that i ask u...

if time can go back to tat day....

i really hope i wont call u...

i hope i still dont knw tat...

till i die...

till we old...

till i totally 4get hu u r...

but...

everything is late....

coz....

wat i had done...

i will regret...

nothing let me satisfaction.....










end,i love ~you you~ so much...

today was a boring day as usual...

n also....

miss him a lots....

like usual...

haha...

dont know y...

when i know tat he dont hate me dd...

i feel like i had feel on him again!!!!

omg...!!!

haiz....

dont know y....

maybe is...

i like him...

almost 1 year n dont know how many week alrdy...

time...

really passed damn freaking fast.....

time...

really can help us setter down every thing....

some time...

i love "time" so much...

bcoz...

it help me a lot...

some time....

i hate "time" a lot...

bcoz....

it let me wait,n it pass slow....

haha...

anywhere....

i still love time....

^^

haha...

n miss u!!!!!

aaaaaa lllllloooooottttttttttssssssssss!!!!!!

end, i love ~You You~ so much.....

boy~~

i really really de like you....

do u know that???

did u know i really mean it??

haha...

i know u donno...

coz...

i nvr tell u tat....

coz i still not brave enough....

u know y??

i let ppl hurt b4 u...

i really scare u will did the same thing like him...

i really scare every thing will back again...

4 me...

" love " tis word really is a hard thing to get...

n i don really know how to " love " a person...

i really wanna tell u tat...

i like the one is u,not him....

i really hope u will give me some comfort when i feel sad...

i really hope u will give me wat i want....

wont hurt me...

one more thing...

i really like u n love u...

You You...

plzzz....

dont hurt me,just like him...

plzzzz....

end,i love u ~You You~

2day i feel like wanna chat v him...

bt at the end...

i nvr find him...

coz...

i tink he r busying ply his game ba....

haha...

coz..

some time i sms him...

he nvr reply de...

that why....

i feel hurt n sad....

haiz...

now...

i freaking miss him!!!!!!

oh my god...

how can stop this kind ooooffff ffffeeeeelllllliiiiiinnnggggg???

haiz..

hope time reali can pass that fast.....

cant say more dd...

need sleep liao...

bye...










end,i love ~You You~ so much.....

yeaaaa~~

this friday,10/09/2010 i'm going Langkawi...

^^

so happy and excited!!!

haha...

9.30 a.m we need to prepare finish n also need to reach there be 1p.m...
(i think so larh..coz heard the conservation between baba n mama)

woohoo...

if can i will buy some present for my fiend...

^^

haha...

i also wont 4get to buy for him,~You You~

n also...

i will take some pic..

haha....

i reali cant wait till that day cum...

coz..

this time is go v my aunt,mum,cousin & sis...

jus only my baba never go....

T__T

sad sei me...

coz...

normally...

i go trip is also v family only....

haha...

hope this trip will be more fun...

^^
coz...

i can ply v my cousin...

haha....

hope friday will cum faster.....

^^









end,i love ~You You~ so much...

my trail year result suck like shit...

haiz...

no mood to study...

donno y??!!

haiz...







end,love ~You You~ so much....

yoooo~~

happy holiday guys...

today is 2nd say of holiday...

kindna miss him...

haha....

i quite miss ur smile....

: )

haha.....

n i also miss my friend!!!!

WTF....

my friend said i change a lot??

did i??

haha...

i also donno...

by the ways thank ah GJW...

u make me changed a bit...

b4 u leave me...

now...

i thing i am nearly success...

woohoo...










end,love ~You You~ so much.....

now a day...

y still gt ppl say i still like GJW???

i really dnno y???

haha...

is ok....

i dont mind tat..

u knw y??

coz...

now he is no my cup of tea...

my tea is him,~You You~....

haha....

n...

every second i'm loving him tat deep...

haha...

i really hope...

one day..

one day...

that i can tell you that...

"xxxxxxxxxxxx, i love you so much"....

u knw y???

coz...

now a days..

this keep on appear in my mind...

haha....








end,love ~You You~ so much.....

long time nvr update...

haha..

let say bout him,my new tagget...

n describe him as ~You You~ ba...

now a days....

i starting love him more n more...

i donno y...

although i dont reali knw wat kind of personality he had...

but i only know...

he had a gud smile...

^^
mayb bcoz of tis i like him tat much...

haha...

reali like ~You You~ so much....

n nth can stop me to love him...

><




end,love ~You You~ so much...

hi~~

long time nvr post dd lor..

coz..

lazy..

^^

ya..

i have a new tagget...

^^

he quite handsome n cut den the black face god...

i tink i can stop fall in love dd...

hope he reali is my last boy....

^^

wth oh!!!!!

find out de true 1st la.....

if reali i do...

i would nt call u de lor!!!!

u think i am stupid???

NO....

however....

this is the last time i mention bout u!!!!!

last means last!!!!!!!!!!!

其实...

我很爱你的....

其实....

我不是很讨厌你.....

其实....

我早就知道....

你不会爱上我或真真的想和我做朋友....

我什么...

我还让你伤到我的心呢???

为什么...

我什么都做好了准备...

还是让你伤到呢???

我真的不懂....

wat the hell man!!!!

i'm annoying??!!

ya...

ya...

ya....

y???!!!

y u all like that de!!!!!!

u r de 1 hu say i over reacting 1st de lu!!!!!

u blame me??!!!

waht de hell men!!!!

fuck u!!!!!!!!!!!!

never......

mind......

my life is no friend de!!!

i had NO FRIEND......

BFF izit mean anything to me???

i feel like...

don't know how to treat my friend well!!!

i am damn....

freaking damn....

coz...

don't know how to treat friend well...

don't know how to be a friend...

i am not perfect...

& i hate thingssss r perfect!!!!

& i hate to be nice ddd....

i had tired on it 2...

i so TIRED....

i wanna die...

now..

as soon as posibble....

i will be happy that i am not having now!!!

coz....

this will only let me grow up...

& how to solve problemsssss......

i had nth to say bout "him" dd....

coz...

i admit that i can't face him!!!

is true..

i only know how to teach ppl solve problem...

but my self don't know how to solve it!!!!
(what the hell!!!)

no one will help me!!!!

no one....

coz.....

no one is left in my life!!!

i had NTH!!!!!

hide ur own attitude for what????

lie 2 ppl is not a nice thing kay!!!!

so...

be4 u all say ppl attitude...

plz....

think bout ur self 1st...

use ur stupid pig dog brain....

and think...

is it ur own attitude also de same with other....

is it ur own attitude is better den that person u want to zat...

plz...

use ur brain at all those tiny tiny thing!!!!!!!

@#$%&@!!!!!!

@#$%&!!!!

f@#$ u!!!!

i no need u 2 kelian me...

coz...

你好不到去那里!!!!

u think all ur friends like u??

i tell u "pui"

u 2 "自恋" la...

haha...

which u faster change school!!!!!

i can't stand it anymore!!!!

i am enough to all those stupid feeling!!!

they effected me!!!

effected my study....

my emotion....

even my stupid attitude!!!!!!

what la....

what you want...

just tell....

don't let me guess!!!!

please...

i really can't stand it!!!!

why you can't leave me alone???

why???

just let me be alone...

stop using that kind of eye looking at me!!

stop it!!!

please....

if u want me to stop in love with euu!!!

我在面对现实。。。。

我要走出悲伤！！！！！

To:-
Panda aka lazy pig....

你做初一，我做十五。。。

我不会放过你的！！！！

你最好小心点。。。。

我不会再把你当作好人般看待了！！！

你是无赖。。。

下流。。。。

卑鄙。。。。

无耻。。。。。

给我收敛一下！！！！！

i <3>my lent:-
i bought a contact lens...
is it in purple colors...
i <3>
haha...
by the way...
i still feel unhappy....
because....
i finally find out that panda aka lazy pig is lying all the time!!!
firstly i believed him de!!!
but after few week i think probably...
i will not believing him dd....
lately...
my friend told me that "something..something"...
i really had shock!!!!
that i find out...
he was lying to me all the time!!!!
OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!!!
T___T
i had been lied by my own lovers....
i am really sad...
so start form today....
i will not be nice to you anymore....
panda aka lazy pig!!!!
我要你等着瞧!!!!

tired:-

i am really tiring....

you know what??

coz i keep on pretend that i am your friend..

i am tired about that!!!!!

really....

i "friend" back with you is because i don want you go call the boy help you!!!!

i don know why you doing that....

i don know are you stupid or crazy...

you think i will listen that who i like when i'm angry someone??!!

i tell you la....

NO!!!!

i wont...

okay...

so hope this time you will wont be so stupid and crazy dd....

and i hope you will understand...

this will be my last time talk with you and talk bad about you.....

cause i don want argue with you anymore...

this also will me last!!!!

bye...

and never see.....

disappoited:-

so disappoited la...

suddenly feel like that!!!

how???!!

haiz....

i think i really give up you liao~~